I am amazed that I've done such a poor job in updating this. Once a month doesn't seem too lofty of a time frame, so from today I'll attempt for that. The struggles going on in me over why and how to work have come to a lull, where work feels more approachable though less climatic. It's funny because as I explore order and have really kept my eyes open for it, most of the people I mention this to dissuade me and seem to hint that as a general rule there is freedom 'outside of the box' and little more than oppression in tradition and rules. Of course my own perceptions color this, and though fascinated and transfixed, order does not yet feel natural or even necessary.
Wait, I contradict. Recently with getting into oils I saw the reasons behind different rules, and I suppose the more we can view rules as suggestions the more options we are left with. And what is more frightening than options? For all our cries of freedom, in most cases, when you leave a man to his own devices he does nothing trecherous and nothing glorious. Most of our lives are spent taking care of things that continue our lives. The climatic moments of bravery or vengence are gaped at in awe until life simply resumes, continues rolling on and we have to wonder what will be for breakfast.
